July 11, 2015.
I felt the baby move Thursday night after walking out of Jurassic World with Osiris and Amy. I think it’s a sign that the baby loves dinosaurs as much as I do. I guess the T-Rex made the baby “rawr”. So cute.
That was the first time I believe I’ve felt him or her. At least, while I’ve been conscious. I think I may have felt something one morning as I was rolling over in bed, but I may have also been dreaming.
I had my first “I’m having this baby” dream this week. It was a little frightening because I had the baby as I would be now…. Too early. I was going for an ultrasound, and I started feeling pain in my lower abdomen. The doctor rushed to me and the itty bitty 15 week baby came out. He/She was tiny and shrively. The doctor quickly put him in a clear box, but as nurses and doctors rushed toward the baby, nobody could say if he/she would make it. I was so scared. I think that’s the first time I’ve felt real fear during my pregnancy.
It’s been several weeks since we last saw the baby. When I still don’t feel anything, I get scared. I want my baby to develop fully and be born a crazy, screaming, breathing, healthy baby that looks like his or her daddy and mommy.
Besides that dream, I haven’t been filled with emotion and sensitive feelings as many pregnant women describe themselves to be. I’m still calm about everything and manage to stay objective in the most stressful of situations. I’ve experienced very little negativity. I have, on the other hand, been filled with joy for the most part. I wake up with a smile and I find myself laughing a lot more.
Because we’ve been in the middle of moving, and getting jobs, and driving way more than usual, and still have no A/C in the car, as well as getting accustomed to full time schedules, I am getting very, very tired. I’m really surprised I’ve survived this week specifically. Last night, I fell asleep at 7pm and didn’t wake up until 7am this morning. I’m so tired.
But I am grateful! I am grateful Osiris and I finally have our own apartment. I’m grateful we have plenty of space in preparation for baby! I’m grateful we both have really awesome jobs we each love. I’m grateful we work within 5 minutes of our new apartment and 10 minutes of each other! I’m grateful we are together and happy and very much in love with each other.
Oh. And my belly is growing little by little! It’s very exciting!
And, at my job, I get special treatment from everyone. I’m cherishing it!