August 2nd, 2015
19 weeks. 1 day.
When I get hungry.
Being pregnant and hungry is way different from being not pregnant, and hungry.
The few unfortunate times I reach the point of hunger during the last few weeks, it is unbearable. It’s not just my stomach. It’s not just growling or that fatigue of an empty stomach. It’s not just that I can’t stop thinking about food.
It’s that I can’t think at all. My brain closes. I can’t even see what’s in front of me. Don’t get me wrong, I can see… but I can’t SEE. There’s no way of focusing on what is in front of me. My whole body feels terribly incapable of anything. I can’t think. I can’t listen. I can’t understand what anyone says to me. I can’t stand having to look at anything or anyone that’s not something I can eat.
I can’t go on. I just can’t!!!